One Woman’s Weblog

I am an approval seeker, and am not sure why.  Why do I waste a minute of my life wondering why people don’t like me?  I ask myself “Why are they mad?  What did I do wrong?”  When the truth is…. some people just plain don’t like me.  And that should be enough for me to know. Consider Kimbra.  A woman in my neighborhood. We’ve had a run-in in the past that left me confused and upset.  Months have passed, and though I always stayed wary of her, I thought we’d moved past it.  Last week, I’d recovered enough from my ankle injury to start playing volleyball again.  Kimbra was there and I got the distinct feeling I was receiving the cold shoulder from her.  I was bothered… but thought I might be overreacting.  This morning however, I made a small joke (not at anyone’s expense) and she completely blew up said “I’m not fighting with you Stacey” and stormed off.  And I’m actually upset about it.  Why?  Her reaction was completely unjustified.  She’s not my friend… I never really got past the nastiness she directed my way in the past… and frankly she’s a bit of a bitch.